Jeff and Courtney/Northwest Indiana/Chicago wedding photographer

“His fingers brushed the tears, gently from her face.  she looked up with surprise and, for a moment, all the world was the way he saw her, and the knowing she was seen”~~Jesh de Rox

I have known Courtney for a long time.  She is my friend…I wouldn’t know what to do without her.  So when she met Jeff and they decided to get married I couldn’t have been more thrilled when they asked me to take their pictures for their wedding.  As I watch her start this new adventure I am reminded of all that she has been through in the last couple of years and I thought this poem I found by Jesh de Rox fits her life right now and all the love and joy she and Jeff have in front of them.

I am reminded

that everything here changes, nothing is constant but life itself,

and even that, in so many different forms no certain can be depended upon.

I am reminded

that moments, beautiful and painful, will be with me always,

rising and falling around me, waves crashing into each other, into me.

I am reminded

that love and joy both are decisions, and as much as a part of me waits for them,

the fact is: they both are waiting for me.

I am reminded

that I can’t choose how long the ones i love will be with me,

but I can choose how much i love them while they are.

I am reminded

that growing asks me to stay open, even in the face of trials that give me a thousand reasons to close.

especially then.

I am reminded

that I have seen greatness with my eyes, held it close in my hands,

and no sorrow ~ past, present or future~ can steal that from me, unless I let it.

I am reminded

that I have lived astonishing moments of true love, experienced the communion of genuine friendship,

that these experiences have given me a strength it is impossible to measure.

I am reminded

that this breath ~ for this one brief, perfect and unfinished moment ~ becomes mine.

it’s up to me what to do with it.

~~~Jesh de Rox~~~

I think Salvage One in Chicago, might be my new favorite place on earth right now.  I could not have picked a better place to take their engagements.

Devin and Mary are married/Northwest Indiana/chicago wedding photographer

I have decided the sun is my friend and the clouds and overcast are my worst enemy.  I love happy sunny wedding day pictures.  After a very long winter I decided to start blogging again with a wedding that happened in September of last year.  I am clearly behind.  I have made it a mission to blog the 13 weddings that I am behind and the many family and couple sessions that I have done.  So here goes.  Mary and Nelson were married on the most beautiful day ever.  Most beautiful couple ever.  Most beautiful engagement party.  How could I mess this up?  Then two people so in love and so comfortable with each other.  I loved the whole day…it didn’t seem like a moment of work.

 

Robert and Katie are getting married!/Northwest Indiana/Chicago wedding photographer

I took these photos last fall.  I decided to share these today because in them I can feel the sunshine and I need to be reminded of the green grass and warm sunshine.  Not only was the sun shining but the happiness from these two was contagious and I need that too.  They are getting married this August at The Lighthouse in Cedar Lake Indiana.  I just can’t wait!

Love is real…

real is love…

 

~John Lennon~

 

I can’t believe the day finally arrived! Waldorf Astoria in Chicago/Chicago/Northwest Indiana wedding photographer

What a gorgeous wedding. I can’t believe that I was there.  I wish that I could say that the bride reminded me of how I looked on my wedding day.  She was stunning.  The groom…French.  Need I say more? I thought I loved my husbands accent.  Have to say I like a french one better.  Made the day even a little romantic.  Needless to say it made Katrina, Courtney and I a little giddy that as we rode in the limo he was on the phone speaking french and she was staring out the window in all her glory.  Just a storybook wedding.

But…

It was all the little things that made this wedding perfect.  The flowers, the venue, the gown…the smiles, the laughter.  Oh and one more time all around me people speaking French.

The love when you see it for real changes you. Not just between the bride and groom but everyone around them.

 

A look back…my year in 2013

I wanted to take the time and look back over the last year.  So much has happened.  My kids seem to be growing up faster than I can breathe.  My life keeps changing.  I wanted to be grateful for what I have been given this past year. To embrace the good times and the terrible ones.  So that I come out better.  To not take anything for granted.  To have more hope.  I have learned what it means to pray.  I have asked God so many times to take away the hurt or the pain and replace with peace and comfort.  I know now what it really means to love….to fight for something so hard that you learn to surrender.

 

To believe in something so much that you are willing to risk everything…

Today I read a letter my daughter wrote in school.  In it she wrote “My mom is one of the strongest women I know.  My mom may not be perfect, but she is perfect for me.”

So I need to be humble and remember where the strength comes from and trust in it.  Prayer…is powerful.  I was reminded of that by my friend and leader Mike Barker who has made me believe again that I am one of God’s children and he hears me and that he works through others when I don’t listen back.  He told me once to never ignore inspiration just because the process or outcome is scary…this is the essence of faith.  I have learned to believe that.  Thank you.

To notice the beauty around me…

To ponder and then let it go…

To experience joy….

and then to take pictures to remember all that you have and what you have been given.

So I took a couple of my favorite photos from each of my sessions and decided to put them up.  To remember the wonderful people that have come into my life over the last year.  I am so blessed.  I love what I do.  It can be frustrating and cause so much anxiety but all so worth it.  I look over these images and realize I was there.  I am alive….I matter…..

Thank you to each and every one of you who have entrusted your memories to me…I am truly honored.

 

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